What once was, what could have been
March 3rd, 2007 RachelI drove past an old apartment Adam and I almost rented years and years ago. Fresh faced young’uns…we were all set to leap, before mutually coming to the decision that we weren’t ready and this was not it. At the time, a top of the line pair of rose colored glasses made the baby pink kitchen cabinets and unabashedly out in the open large pile of pot on the table (leading me to believe that and the state of the kitchen cabinets were somehow related…) seem just fine. Maybe not perfect but not a dealbreaker anyway.
What if we had moved in? What if we’d been where we are now…but three years earlier? Yeah, I know…you’re not supposed to play ‘what ifs’ and it’s almost a necessity to have a mug/tshirt/socks or at least heart that say “no regrets!” Well, I’m not, and I wasn’t, regretting…I was/am pondering (that’s what happens when it’s late and you’re headed home).
It’s quite possible we would have loved it, been ready for that step, and ended up somewhere along the lines of where we are now. What I’m most grateful for is that we’ve always been honest enough with each other that the first person who brought up waiting a bit before breaking out the Uhaul boxes wasn’t crucified by the other (I can’t even remember now who said what…). We’re not perfect, but we try hard to remember we’re on the same team here.
I’ll be in Toronto for 2 weeks, before heading to Texas - so if my posts are a little bland looking or lacking in visual goodies, I apologize; I’m writing in Wordpress for now. Oh, and I’ll attend to the kitty pics shortly - for the 75% of you using IE I hear that’s been a gross experience with more than just a tad bit of scrolling.
With a fair amount of snow and biting wind…scarves and ‘real’ boots…It’s actually winter here. I’ve got to say…
I kinda missed it.
